Im a libra but I feel like a Scorpio(lately)?

I don't know exactly how to explain but here it goes lately iv been feeling more angry for lack of a better term like this surge of delightfully intoxicating power surging threw me, I find myself utterly enthralled with... let's not say revenge but punishment I find my self to be lately more unforgiving (rarely) but it has been occurring more often. way more intuitive of peoples disgusting nature, obsessed with conspiracy theories and finding out how people really think, I've always had A LOT ual prowess and energy the obscure and metaphysical and. a melancholic yet proud sense of self I often find my self categorizing things and people very much like a computer I've always take thing to the extreme .........! food drugs anger ANGER love happiness cruelty everything is in excess. I just find it fun to know how people think and be in control at all times I already had some of these qualities since birth but not all. I'm afraid of these feelings since they drive people away sigh.. but I keep having trouble putting these away. every time I get mad I just internalize it a very cool manner before I would ***** and moan a lot. now I just stay cool but I DON"T forget much more judgmental and jealous. sorry for all the hectic writing just lot's to say at once I don't care oct 3rd bith date help.