I can't help but fear dying so much..it's eating away at me..?

That is why there is hope. Hope is our shield against not only the vagaries of life, but of death. Without hope, life is a living hell.We hope that each breath is not our last and hope that moment won't come for many years. Remember, change those things you can, tolerate those you cannot and hope you have the wisdom to know the difference. The secret to happiness lies within you. Know that it is an attitude not an emotion and for that reason you are in charge. Do not let emotion become your master because you will become slave to you glands. Accept life as it is and take disappointment with equanimity. Enjoy life because with all its drudgery and disappointments, it is still a beautiful world. Have faith that the universe is unfolding as it should. You are a child of the universe as much as the trees and the stars. You have a right to be here.